The philosophy of flowers

This concept was created while living at the feet of the Avatar.  On my walks  to "darshan" I would take a photograph of a flower on my way to sit for medtiations in an effort to still my mind and keep my shadow still.   The idea of being unaware of one's self and keeping the shadow still, so as not to affect others, or be affected by others,   except as shade from the sun, and not mental shadows cast by all sorts of mind games especially in the spiritual arena of groups.  no matter the genre..this aspect was created from my death experience with Christ.  That is somewhat private and not for public consumption in the context of this page.   I would sit for hours carrying the concept of flowers  throughout the day.. What was revealing  was How people reacted to  me while having that the only thought in my head and heart, other than internal chanting of the Gayatri mantra as a prayer vibration within my aura.   The  internal guidance was always  to be silent of the dreams and visions of the avatar within that lead to the healings I received to survive the catastrophic illnesses car accident and betrayals to truth  (and that was on the way to meeting the Avatar) whilst living there it was a method in which to  allow people to reveal themselves by how they react to flowers in the context of thoughts.   This was part of the journy not to be effected by the shadows of others but also not to affect others with the shadow created by the concept of power and knowledge or pain experienced.   It is the belief that one can see another that is truly heartbreaking in its errors of judgement and reactions.  People see what they want to see, and rarely do they see the truth.  This activity whether effective or not to "see into another's business without express permission or invitation is a razor's edge path as one never knows who's information one is seeing.   Perhaps one is only seeing themselves....What one does with the insight given is the revelation and test..    The use is abuse theory.  When the meditation is stillness and being without another thought in one’s head…what people saw revealed themselves without my having to use any kind of insight into others and remain focused on keeping my shadow still.   I called it the philosophy of flowers…this concept was held and still is for years...and part of what lead to the refelctions by way of  photographs of the avatar. It was a way not to use Him but in a sense to just be quiet about His healings that came without invitation but with my permission....His gentleness is reflected in the flowers..what people do to flowers reveals themselves...do flowers have karma?