The philosophy of flowers

This concept arose while I lived near the Avatar. On my walks to "darshan," I'd photograph a flower to quiet my mind before meditation and still my shadow self. The goal was to be self-aware, keeping my shadow still so as not to affect or be affected by others, except as a source of shade. This was about avoiding mental shadows cast by mind games, especially in spiritual groups. This aspect emerged from my death experience with Christ, which is personal. I would meditate for hours, holding the concept of flowers in my mind. It revealed how people reacted to me when that was my only thought, alongside the internal chanting of the Gayatri mantra. The guidance was always to remain silent about the dreams and visions of the Avatar, which led to healings that helped me survive illnesses, a car accident, and betrayals of truth (which occurred on the way to meeting the Avatar). While living there, this was a method of allowing people to reveal themselves by their reactions to flowers within the context of my thoughts. This journey was about not being affected by others' shadows and not affecting them with shadows created by power, knowledge, or experienced pain.  People often see what they want to see, seldom the truth. This act—whether effective or not, of "seeing into another's business" uninvited—is precarious, as you never know whose information you're accessing. Perhaps you're only seeing yourself. What you do with that insight is the real revelation and test: the use-is-abuse theory. When meditation is pure stillness, without a single thought, what people saw revealed themselves without me needing to pry; I focused on keeping my shadow still. I called it the philosophy of flowers—a concept held for years and part of what led to the avatar's photographic reflections. It was a way not to exploit Him, but to remain silent about His unbidden healings, which I permitted. His gentleness reflects in the flowers. How people treat flowers reveals themselves. Do flowers even have karma?